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Name:
 Siddharth Javeri
E-mail address:
 siddharthmjaveri@gmail.com
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 London, UK

Comments:

 Missing you bro, almost one year now since we had that talk before I left for Summer break and University. Your words of advice are fresh as ever.

Still praying for you and your family, take care Aloush.

Siddharth
Date
 Monday 06/05/2006 8:51:53pm

Name:
 Dana El Ali
E-mail address:
 dana_691@hotmail.com
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 Dubai U.A.E.

Comments:

 I miss you....
Date
 Saturday 06/03/2006 7:14:27pm

Name:
  
E-mail address:
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 I miss you...

I miss the way you used to stand with your legs side by side and your hands fidgeting...on your nose, hair, hips...

I miss the way you would enter our home and admire mom's homecooking for hours...

I miss our chats in your black and grey room...

I miss how you would ask for your room to be untouched and messy...

I miss the knowledge you would share with me...

I miss your curiousness about everything that surrounds you...

I miss your walk,
I miss your smell,
I miss your laugh,
I miss your touch,
I miss your hugs,
I miss every part of you...

Sometimes, I think I dreamt you...
But then you couldn't have been this REAL- you couldn't have reached my soul so deeply- you couldn't have brought so much joy to my heart...

I MISS YOU...
Date
 Wednesday 05/03/2006 1:02:03pm

Name:
 Rasha Ahmad
E-mail address:
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 Beirut/Lebanon

Comments:

 Aloush,I simply... miss you... xx
Date
 Friday 03/31/2006 10:03:30pm

Name:
 Nawa
E-mail address:
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 Dubai-UAE

Comments:

 Hope ure resting in peace cuz .. year by year passes by and u becoming closer into our hearts it's so tragic the way God had 2 take such a bright man from his family..Aloosh we pray everyday tht ure in heaven and forever in our hearts u stay..
Date
 Tuesday 03/28/2006 9:57:02pm

Name:
 Guillermo Martinez
E-mail address:
 Massiveattack_187@hotmail.com
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 Ali, i miss you man. Rest in peace.
-Guillermo
Date
 Monday 03/13/2006 9:02:30pm

Name:
 Anne Jolis
E-mail address:
 anniejolis@aol.com
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 US

Comments:

 At work, just daydreaming, not really able to get much done because Ali's floating in and out of my mind.

I just wanted to drop a line, in case any of the family reads this, to let them know that Ali is still on my mind and in my heart every minute, every day. That the shock and pain of his leaving has not dulled, but seems to grow and deepen every day, and that because of that, you all are in my heart as well.

I don't know how or when, but I very much hope I see you soon - Darine, Ahmad, Abdallah, all of you, I send my love.

Always,
Annie
Date
 Wednesday 03/08/2006 8:26:09pm

Name:
  
E-mail address:
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 I am sharing this with my family and all those who loved and cherished Ali. I hardly ever smile the way I used to and I find understanding any aspect of my life even harder but recently I am trying to acknowledge the fact that Ali is with me in everything I do. This is a comforting story and I pray it helps my family and everyone out there to look at life in a more optimistic point of view...

'I walked into the grocery store not particularly interested in buying groceries. I wasn't hungry. The pain of losing my husband of 7 years was still too raw. And this grocery store held so many sweet memories.

He often came with me and almost every time he'd pretend to go off and look for something special. I knew what he was up to. I'd always spot him walking down the aisle with the three yellow roses in his hands.

He knew I loved yellow roses. With a heart filled with grief, I only wanted to buy my few items and leave, but even grocery shopping was different since he had passed on.

Shopping for one took time, a little more thought than it had for
two. Standing by the meat, I searched for the perfect small steak and remembered how he had loved his steak.

Suddenly a woman came beside me. She was blonde, slim and lovely in a soft green pantsuit. I watched as she picked up a large package of T-bones, dropped them in her basket.. Hesitated, and then put them back. She turned to
go and once again reached for the pack of steaks.

She saw me watching her and she smiled. "My husband loves T-bones, but honestly, at these prices, I don't know." I swallowed the emotion down my throat and met her pale blue eyes.

"My husband passed away eight days ago," I told her. Glancing at the package in her hands, I fought to control the tremble in my voice. "Buy him the steaks. And cherish every moment you have together."

She shook her head and I saw the emotion in her eyes as she placed the package in her basket and wheeled away.

I turned and pushed my cart across the length of the store to the dairy products. There I stood, trying to decide which size milk I should buy. A Quart, I finally decided and moved on to the ice cream. If nothing else, I could always fix myself an ice cream cone.

I placed the ice cream in my cart and looked down the aisle toward the front. I saw first the green suit, then recognized the pretty lady coming towards me. In her arms she carried a package. On her face was the brightest smile I had ever seen. I would swear a soft halo encircled her blonde hair as
she kept walking toward me, her eyes holding mine.

As she came closer, I saw what she held and tears began misting in my eyes. "These are for you," she said and placed three beautiful long stemmed yellow roses in my arms. "When you go through the line, they will know these are paid for." She leaned over and placed a gentle kiss on my cheek, then smiled again. I wanted to tell her what she'd done, what the roses meant, but still unable to speak, I watched as she walked away as tears clouded my vision.

I looked down at the beautiful roses nestled in the green tissue wrapping and found it almost unreal. How did she know? Suddenly the answer seemed so clear. I WASN'T ALONE.

Oh, you haven't forgotten me, have you? I whispered, with tears in my eyes. HE WAS STILL WITH ME, and she was his angel.

Every day be thankful for what you have and who you are.

Even though I clutch my blanket and growl when the alarm rings. Thank you, Allah, that I can hear. There are many who are deaf.

Even though I keep my eyes closed against the morning light as long as possible. Thank you, Allah, that I can see. Many are blind.

Even though I huddle in my bed and put off rising. Thank you, Allah, that I have the strength to rise. There are many who are bedridden.

Even though the first hour of my day is hectic, when socks are lost, toast is burnt, tempers are short, and my children are so loud. Thank you, Allah, for my family. There are many who are lonely.

Even though our breakfast table never looks like the picture in magazines and the menu is at times unbalanced. Thank you, Allah, for the food we have. There are many who are hungry.

Even though the routine of my job often is monotonous. Thank you, Allah, for the opportunity to work. There are many who have no job.

Even though I grumble and bemoan my fate from day to day and wish my circumstances were not so modest.

Thank you, Allah, for life.'
Date
 Wednesday 02/22/2006 10:37:44am

Name:
 Nawa El - Ali
E-mail address:
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 Dubai - UAE

Comments:

 Thru this website, im glad i have the opportunity to wish u a happy belated bday ..and ontop of that happy valentine's day!:) I love u i miss u..and ontop of that i hope ure having a good time up there :) WE LOVE U
AND URE IN EACH AND EVERYBODY'S HEARTS!
Date
 Monday 02/20/2006 9:54:51am

Name:
  
E-mail address:
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 To My Baby Brother...

'Each and every day
Daydreams of how we used to be
See your family
And that baby's lookin just like you
Why'd you go away
I've been missin you lately
Tell me what you're going through..'

'Ooh, I'm missin you
Tell me why the road turns, why it turns
Ooh, I'm missin you
Nah nah nah nah nah, oh tell me why why why why ???'

~ Notorious B.I.G. ~

I listen to this song on a daily basis and dream of our beautiful times together. Its funny how you even begin cherishing the fights, yells, hair-pulling experiences we shared as brother and sister.

Since our 'diaper days' we celebrated our BIRTHdays together. Mom used to bring us Magicians, Clowns, bake us Cute Cakes, invite everyone to Waldorf, and choose the Wierdest Outfits for us (but of course, at that time, we we're sooooo IN).

Do you remember our last BIRTHday together? London...All your friends showed up from Belgium...Tantra...Danced and Laughed the night away...Then, as usual, you become so Adorable and start to express your feelings...'I LOVE U Man!' (with a huge, tight hug.)

I'll never forget these images and the smile that would come across my face when I watched you laugh from the bottom of your heart. I saw you grow into a beautiful man, with strong principles, ambition, and a heart as pure as gold. Although I was never great at expressing myself emotionally, I WAS SO PROUD OF YOU! I wish and pray that I could turn back time and tell you this EVERYDAY!

Ali, BIRTHdays are just not the same anymore...They tell me, you wouldn't be happy seeing me like this...So I'll PROMISE to make them JOYFUL again...I PROMISE to make you PROUD...And I PROMISE, that when we meet again, I will give you the TIGHTEST HUG and tell you how much you MEAN to me...

........I LOVE U........
Date
 Wednesday 02/15/2006 11:11:38am

Name:
 Rawiya Ahmad
E-mail address:
  
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 First of all, Happy Valentines Day Habibe...Second of all, Happy Birthday...This was a day made for love and a precious angel like you was born on this day... I wish you were here, with us, so i can wish you happy birthday in person and let you know how much you mean to me...but i can't, life is unfair and we have to live with what we got..till this day i dont believe your gone...i just think that your in a long journey and will be back soon...but i know ill see you...inshallah we will all meet again...take care coz...i miss you and love you so much...
Rawiya
Date
 Tuesday 02/14/2006 9:09:56pm

Name:
 Ahmad
E-mail address:
 Litto_B@hotmail.com
Homepage :
 http://www.aliafif.com
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 Yo yo yo. How’s the life man? How’s everything going? Inshallah kher habib albe. Happy Valentines Day bro… It’s largely evident why Allah chose this day to be your birthday but you simply had too much love to offer on this earth so hopefully you’re spreading the wealth up there. I’m hoping its nothing but happiness man, just wanting to wish you a blissful, colourful, bright, relaxed, sunny, and ecstatic birthday. It’s all you deserve and im sure that Allah knows that as well. As Big Guy said last year, I’m sure that parties in Heaven will beat any night here, whether it be in Beirut, Antwerp, or London so party for us as well. I must admit I’m a little jealous to not be celebrating with you but I can sacrifice this much for your pleasure…
Otherwise there isn’t much to say, Uni’s good, seen Meneer Scoones a couple of times, its fair to say London misses you… Arsenal is doing shit, they are fifth in the Premiership and Real Madrid are sure to beat them in the Champions League, and the beloved Henry is finally leaving so it don’t look like you got much hope..! Hassan is clearly depressed because I remind him of these things every day... Oh well man, life is life init?
Otherwise things are good habibe, the family’s alright and Inshallah ill stand up and fill your shoes the way you would have wanted me to… I’m hoping to achieve everything we would have accomplished together so wish me luck and guide me through the struggles of life when I’m blind… Today and everyday you’re loved for what you are, what you strived to be, and what you always will be...

You’re always on my mind, I miss you.
Love you bro, take care.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank all the people that have continued to come to the website and provide my family with their thoughts and feelings. It means much more than you guys think and we are all grateful for your support. Thanks again.

Ahmad


‘I shall not die of a cold. I shall die of having lived’ - Willa Cather

‘The day which we fear as our last is but the birthday of eternity’ - Seneca

‘Death is for many of us the gate of hell; but we are inside on the way out, not outside on the way in’
- George Bernard Shaw

‘Death is a release from the impressions of sense, and from impulses that make us their puppets, from the vagaries of the mind, and the hard service of the flesh’
- Marcus Aurelius

‘As a well-spent day brings happy sleep, so a life well used brings happy death’
- Leonardo Da Vinci

‘Let children walk with Nature, let them see the beautiful blendings and communions of death and life, their joyous inseparable unity, as taught in woods and meadows, plains and mountains and streams of our blessed star, and they will learn that death is stingless indeed, and as beautiful as life’
- John Muir

'A brief candle; both ends burning, an endless mile; a bus wheel turning.
A friend to share the lonesome time, a handshake and a sip of wine.
So say it loud and let it ring, we are all a part of everything.
The future, present and the past, fly on proud bird you're free at last'
- Chris Daniels
Date
 Tuesday 02/14/2006 4:23:26pm

Name:
 Hella Zoet
E-mail address:
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 London, England

Comments:

 Ali,Happy Birthday and Happy Valentines day.. we will always remember you.. even though you were not a close friend of mine, you made a big impact on the people closest to me.. Ahmad misses you so much everyday and talks about you often... I see your pictures everday in his flat and its so hard to imagine that you won't be able to celebrate this day with us..We all miss you and even though we know that you are in a better and more beautiful place than all of us... we wish you were still here... Take care of yourself and enjoy this day.. Happy Birthday
Hella
Date
 Tuesday 02/14/2006 2:07:27pm

Name:
  
E-mail address:
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 Your birthday, it's your birthday.. And you're not here to celebrate it.. It's okay, I know you're in paradise right? I just need the assurance..

I'm stuck between reality and fantasy.

Its gotten hard for me to diffrentiate.. Maybe your just some place, far, far away.. Or maybe it's true but I'm just not sure and the tears won't fall..

Im stuck between reality and fantasy.

I need someone to help me out here but I want you and only you. They are telling me though...

So its okay, youre in paradise right?

Celebrate the day of your birth with the beauty of Gods golden land. I love you. Happy Birthday.. Happy Birthday.. Happy Birthday.. The birds are singing.. It's the day an angel was born...
Date
 Monday 02/13/2006 9:58:45pm

Name:
  
E-mail address:
  
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 I'll Be Missing You Lyrics
by Puff Daddy


Yeah... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved (c'mon, check it out)


Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future, can't wait to see
If you'll open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death


Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

[Puff] I miss you Big


It's kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define (can't define)
Wish I coul turn back the hands of time
Us in the six, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone (can't believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life, after death

[Chorus]

[Faith Evans] Somebody tell me why


One black morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face

[Outro: 112]

Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Is a day that I get closer
[Puff] To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] We miss you Big... and we won't stop
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] We miss you Big
Date
 Friday 02/03/2006 2:02:57pm

Name:
 Paul Kelly
E-mail address:
 paulthekelly@yahoo.co.uk
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 Peru

Comments:

 Ali,
Our birthday's coming up soon and my thoughts are with you and your family.
Chi Kung practice is still a living connection for me. I still hope the breathing techniques you learnt have helped you.
Miss you brother,
Keep shining.
Paul
Date
 Monday 01/30/2006 9:17:03pm

Name:
 Tatyana Buck ( Thurston)
E-mail address:
 tabuck@hotmail.com
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 USA- North Carolina

Comments:

 I am sorry to hear the news. I looked through your fotos, and you may not remember me- although I was friends with Jehad and Ahmad... Abi Dinsmore etc. I just wanted to send my condolences. Ali seems to have been a very loved and cherished young man. I hope everyone else is well, and I wish you all a happy 2006.
Date
 Friday 01/20/2006 4:05:59pm

Name:
  
E-mail address:
Homepage :
 http://
City/Country:
  

Comments:

 I wanted to wish you a Happy 2006...
so I stared into a blank screen.

I wanted to kiss and hug you...
so I looked unto your pictures.

I wanted to ask how your travels are going...

What have you been up to?
What have you seen?
Is the world beautiful through your eyes?

I want to know what you know now...
what you feel now...
where you are now...

Damn it, its been
ONE year
THREE months
FIVE days

How long can I go on fooling myself that you are just travelling the world?!

How long can I go on convincing myself that if my baby bro is happy achieving one of his dreams then I should be?!

Is it everything you expected?

Is it everything you dreamed of?

Is it...?

I'm all choked up- words, emotions, life just don't seem the same anymore.

Just want you to know that wherever you may be, whatever you may be doing we LOVE U so much and your absence is profoundly missed. There isn't anything I can do or say to express how much we long to see and hold you...

May 2006 be...
Date
 Monday 01/02/2006 7:02:55am

Name:
 Siddharth Javeri
E-mail address:
 siddharthmjaveri@gmail.com
Homepage:
 http://
City/Country:
 London, UK

Comments:

 Miss you Aloush, always go to your spot, chill with Ahmad and just sit there...thinking about you...wishing you were here with us...hoping we could hear you talk to us...take care.
Date
 Wednesday 12/21/2005 10:24:40pm

Name:
 maher
E-mail address:
 s_p_a_z_2@hotmail.com
Homepage:
 http://nesr
City/Country:
 beyrut

Comments:
Date
 Wednesday 12/14/2005 9:35:21pm

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