It’s a New Year, 2005
I can’t help but wish you were still alive.
It’s the first year without you by my side,
And so I began this year and cried.
They say may 2005 be a joyful year,
But all I could think is how is that possible without you here.
You were the one that shone the light throughout the days,
Now my days have become nothing without your rays.
I realize that my desperate struggle of pulling through,
Is one that will weigh down my shoulders for as long as this is true.
Forever will I feel that I have been torn down to bits by this tragedy,
And never will I be able to stand up again and feel free.
However, I do know that although I do not want to believe this,
And although I’d like to know you’ll be there to give me another kiss,
I should live with the reality of you, my brother, being taken away from me.
And I should live with the reality and pain of this tragedy.
So I shall go on knowing that you have become an angel with wings.
I will say my brother once accomplished the most beautiful things.
Your love will be felt in my heart, your laugh will ring in my ears,
Your light will shine through my eyes, and your face will remain in my mind.
I will remember the memories we’ve shared and cry sad and happy tears.
And when I feel the warmth of the sun, and I raise my eyes, it’s you I will find.
Ali Afif Ahmad, my brother, my angel,
I love you, I miss you, and I always will.
This pain I’m feeling shall never subside,
But it makes me happy to know you’re in a better place.
You were too good of a person for this broken world and it’s all you deserve.
You made a difference in my life, you taught me things no one else did
And the love you spread can never be replaced or felt by any other human being on this earth.
Your life will echo for eternity.
I love you Ali, I love you with all my heart.
But I miss you Ali, and this pain is more than my heart can handle.